BOX BABY

BOX BABY

Though I had this dream—included in A Patchwork Memoir—when I was an adult, I’m posting it out of order because I think it illuminates my earlier state of mind:

I keep turning up variously-colored “Dream” file folders from different…

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FATEFUL

FATEFUL

In A Patchwork Memoir I wrote that “being in school, from adolescence on, was like doing hard time.” And it was. Because of my anxiety disorder, school was a prison to me. As I’ve said, I would hunker down at the back of my classrooms, in constant fear and dread of...

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BRAIN DAMAGE

BRAIN DAMAGE

Toni doesn’t believe me when I tell her how bad my memory is, how mortified I feel when I can’t remember what the movie I saw two nights ago was or what I learned about Lewis and Clark from a documentary last month. She insists I have extraordinary recall—of the...

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ADVERSARIES

Beyond telling the story behind the burn scar on his cheek, I realize that up until now I haven’t said much in my blogs about Doug, who’d never wanted to leave Minnesota in the first place. For one thing, he’d never been as intimidated by my father as I was. For...

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DOUG

DOUG

As I’ve said, the move to California was the undoing of us all—both as a family and as individuals. In A Patchwork Memoir I wrote a vignette I called “Little Guy”:

One Christmas I took a picture of Doug—crouched in front of…

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ODD MAN OUT

The Unitarian Church had a cabin for retreats in Inverness on Tomales Bay. A dozen miles away was secluded McClure’s Beach, which you had to hike to from the parking lot. When I first went to Inverness with my eighth-grade Sunday school class, we roughhoused on the...

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